I recently quit my job after 13 years as a bank teller. The pay was good enough but it started to feel like waking up everyday to go to prison. The routine began to drench me and I somehow felt like a lost cause.
It is normal for people without jobs to feel depressed but for someone who had a decent job like mine, my kind of depression felt unexplainably suicidal. There was no joy, passion or purpose in my life anymore. I started contemplating resignation in 2017 till I finally took the bold step early this year.
When I confided in my best friend about quitting, she asked me the one question I’ve been asking myself all this while; “what are you going to do?” Some friends have also criticized me for not having a back-up plan before deciding to quit my job but to be honest, one more day in that banking hall would have sent me to my grave.
Truth is, I have no idea what I’m going to do next and the thought scares me to death. I am currently 35 years old and there are few entry level jobs for my age. I have attempted taking some courses in digital marketing but it doesn’t seem to be going well for me.
If I knew what I wanted to do, maybe it would be easier to find a way but I am entirely clueless in that regard. I feel relieved to not have to wake up and head to a depressing job anymore but idleness isn’t what I want either.
I would consider starting a business but I know myself and I know it would be the biggest mistake ever. There are people I know who have managed to switch careers over the years and succeeded but I don’t know how to go about it. I would appreciate any advice or direction I can get. Thank you.
Shirley – Accra
